Where in hell did that come from?

I had a good day. Took my honey to the movies to see Clerks 2 and she loved it. It was my second time, and I could watch it again. It is that funny.
I had a very nice dinner, and all is well with the world.
Then out of the blue, I get this overwhelming wave of, I don't know, incredible sadness. I had thoughts of suicide, and just felt hopeless and full of despair.
I have no idea where that came from.
So, I came on to blog about it. It seems to help when I blog about this, so I am.
I wish I knew where this crap came from, though. It isn't like it builds up, it just appears. Seems to linger for a few days, then it goes away.
I probably need drugs, but I won't take them, so no point in seeing a doctor.

I think I'll blog a little about baseball in a few minutes.